Summary
This introspective blog post explores the struggle of a disabled woman grappling with grief, dreams, and creativity amidst the rise of AI technologies. It reflects on the impact of grief on artistic ambitions, personal worth, and the ability to dream of the future in a world flooded with low-quality content generated by large language models (LLMs). Through personal anecdotes and critiques of the current creative landscape, the author navigates feelings of inadequacy and the search for new meaning beyond capitalist values.